Maya's story

Where do I begin? I am 26, I have 2 kids & have been happily married for 8 years now. I have a history of unplanned & unwanted pregnancies. I have always used some form of contraception. All of which have failed. I have fallen pregnant with an IUD, on the pill & on the injection! It is so frustrating. Unfortunately when I'm pregnant I suffer from severe morning sickness & due to that I never want to experience pregnancy AGAIN!

I have had 2 miscarriages & have since had 2 abortions. I just found out yesterday that I am pregnant again (that makes this my 7th pregnancy). The first termination was not so hard, I knew my health was at seriously at risk. But after it was done I felt so guilty & weak that I couldn't have persevered. Then the second termination ripped my world apart! I have never fully recovered from it. & now to think I may have to go through it all again! Why is it that the government won't consider me for a tubal ligation? Considering my past history with pregnancy, regardless of being 26, wouldn't I be a perfect candidate? It is so unfair, I don't have $3,000 to get it done privately.

I've already lost 3kg in the last week through morning sickness! It is horrible to have to struggle everyday to just do the normal things. Morning sickness is a curse! Medicine has failed me! Is there help for women out there like me? Is there anyone in a similar situation? I would love to get someone elses opinion and or advice. Thanks.

-- by Maya, from New Zealand